IS THIS YOUR STORY? You are a perfect human being. You are flawed, emotional, have some basic wounds, but are generally strong. You are a clear thinker, but - well - that doesn't always "fix" things. (Do you wonder, "Why is there so much to fix?") You sense a longing in your life, although - for the most part - you are moving in a direction that feels "good enough"... at least for now. Your life is pretty good, but... "What's that longing?"
Spiritually, you have a belief system that acts as a foundation of sorts, and whether you walk on the edge of conformity or hold the hand of the Divine fairly often, you have longed for a deepening of your connections... to Source, to other like-spirited people, to yourself.
But there's more within the longing... maybe it's a stirring.
For the last x-amount of years, there's been an urging within you and it just keeps growing.... "Okay, I'm ready.... but WHAT exactly am I ready for?" you wonder.
That urging, the sense of "more" and all the serendipitous things that have been guiding you - or is it throwing you? - seem to be unfolding. Maybe too quickly, even, for you to understand where it's all leading.
If you breathe deeply and drop into your knowing, you'll recognize that it's your soul leading you back to you.
AND I'M WONDERING IF THIS IS YOUR BACKGROUND? All your life you have felt that "something more." Naturally, as a child, you DID feel connected. Traumatic childhood or perfectly boxed one, you had those times... those imaginative, playful times. Maybe with a pet, or your friends, or in nature. You felt the "magic." You felt connected to whatever you were doing and to your dreams. You had dreams.
And then you grew.
And as you grew, you did your best to "fit in"... to be accepted and loved whenever possible. Whether within your own household and doing your best to keep the peace, or trying to learn in school, or hanging amongst "cool" friends who expected a certain behavior from you, it was clear there was a code of conduct and you used all the senses you had (permission to use) to "figure it out" and conform so that you - or your environment - would be okay. (*sigh*)
Ah, "permission to use!" See, we are born with inherent metaphysical senses, but not only does the world around us neglect to acknowledge or support them, they nearly always discourage us from using them!
About Your Spiritual Evolution
DO YOU SEEK TO CONNECT MORE CLOSELY WITH YOUR SOUL? So, just to give you a greater perspective, part of why you wanted to "fit in" is because - in spite of the magical playtime, the moments of connecting with the All - there was another aspect in which you felt very different... very removed from others.
It's like there was "something missing." Like people didn't actually SEE you... or know you... or understand you, anyway. There were all these expectations thrown at you... how to behave, how to learn, how to help, how to live in the 3D world, right? And you did those things (most of the time perhaps) and they STILL didn't see, or get, or (whatever it was for) you.
That "whatever it was" piece is that they didn't meet you in a vibrational field that matched your soul. They didn't acknowledge your true self, their true self, or the metaphysical realm from which all things emerge/exist.... Pure LoveConsciousness.
AND HOW ABOUT YOUR UNIQUE GIFTS? So, growing up and conforming, you tucked those "extra senses" away and used them unconsciously instead. (Trust me, they have not only been in use your whole life, they have served you - though not always well. But that's just one of those basic wounds... no biggie.)
Now back to you and those "extra senses." Yes, you have them and you may or may not be conscious of exactly what they are, how you use them, or how they would serve you. Maybe you keep them "secret" still, or perhaps you have embarked on a journey of serving others and using them to some degree. Or you might even - like me - work as a professional intuitive and guide others with your insights. (But let me ask you this: If you are a professional metaphysician or "lightworker" and are reading this, and all of it resonates, yet you still feel that "something more" stirring within, what are you still holding back from the world, from yourself? And why?)
Regardless of how unconscious or well-developed your inherent metaphysical gifts are, it is clear that it is time for all of us to incorporate them even more... expand them to a capacity that is beyond your programmed beliefs. It's time to truly utilize these fundamental aspects of your being to contribute to our collective shift. And to reclaim your power.
ARE YOU A BIT AFRAID OF YOUR INCREDIBLE POWER? Speaking of your power, you can sense it... somewhere. You know you are powerful and that you have this ability to manifest (somehow) and that things should be easier in your life - at least more clear - than they are right now. It's almost a paradox, isn't it? "Is there a block I can't see?" you wonder. Or maybe the blocks are so huge and obvious, and you're like, "WTF?!"
Yeah, WTF?... What IS that about anyway?
Um, to be honest it's a couple of things...
We live in a collective-agreement reality where so many of us are not living up to our full potential - in our full power - so we are co-creating (and re-creating) a lot of density instead because it is familiar, and
You are afraid of your power. Yep, it's so big it practically scares the shit out of you. (*deeper - yes, you're right - kind of sigh*)
Can you take a few moments now to center, breathe deeply and calmly, and feel into your incredible power? .... keep breathing.... be open to feel it.... just allow....
Part of why you fear your power is because it is so big you aren't clear on what to do with it all... Are you worthy enough? Would you misuse it? What does it mean in terms of your responsibility? .... oh and, "What if I hurt someone with my power, or disconnect from what's important to me?!"
About Your Purpose
HAVE YOU TAPPED IN TO YOUR TRUTH FULLY? More than anything, all that urging - all that longing - is a deep desire to know, "Who am I really? Why am I here? What do I have to offer?"
Sure, there's the normal, perfectly human fear. The ego's concerns and all the "what if's." But the truth is that the stirring within you will not settle down until you do. See, you didn't incarnate to "settle down" into the humdrum of daily life - of survival or specific society-approved achievements - or to "settle" for whatever others think you should be happy with.
You incarnated to settle down into who you really are.And all the longing for "something else" or "something out there" or "something more" is really a longing to bring all of who you are into this life, at this time on planet earth. Completely owning you, because you ARE something more.
AND WHAT ABOUT LIVING YOUR JOY? And now really is the time.... to discover more of your truth, unwrap your inherent gifts, and own your unimaginable power. (Is that a really big sigh? I can't tell... you might still be holding your breath.)
But, again, allow the sigh. Breathe fully into those lungs! Feel the release.. the sigh of relief!
Can you imagine how you would feel if you got to be who you truly are? Everyday? Everywhere you went? Keep breathing and imagine! Imagine simply being you in all of your imperfections and authenticity. Imagine unapologetically owning your unique metaphysical gifts... and using them. And having fun... and allowing your power.
Whoa! Imagine your power coming through you with ease and grace and so much Love. No gimmicks. No efforting. Just you being you and experiencing the flow of Source-aligned power.... as YOU, wearing your unique expression. Yep... that's true Joy!
THIS IS YOUR PLACE IN OUR GLOBAL AWAKENING Okay, there's a bit more... and you know this to be true, my dear: It is time to take your place in our global awakening.
In all honesty, it doesn't really matter what that looks like. Some believe that we have a "purpose" and that it is fixed, and we are here to do it. That's possible. Maybe even likely. But as multi-talented, multi-dimensional spiritual human beings, that's probably underestimated, to say the least.
Yet, I will say that many of us made "soul agreements" before we incarnated to come to Earth at this time of our collective evolution and to participate in the process. PARTICIPATE. Not sit in the corner and lick your childhood wounds and pretend like you are incapable. Scared maybe - slightly unconscious even - but not incapable.
But in terms of "taking your place," this is your choice. And it can mean all kinds of things. And about that "global awakening" part, you certainly don't have to do it alone. And you can't, really. We are in this collective reality together and, for the most part, we need each other to support a conscious co-creation.
To "ascend" we need our power. Our own and - because we are One - our collective Source-power to raise the frequency of the planet. (Or - more accurately - to EXPERIENCE the higher frequencies of Love Consciousness that are accessible to the human collective on our planet now.... but that's kinda wordy and a bit New-Agey sounding.)
Like you, I've seen and struggled with human limitation. Yet I have also called forth and manifested an awakened soul; I am open to grander truths and possibilities, I'm willing to show up and accept my gifts even when my ego doesn't "get it" and say yes to who I am anyway. I believe that awakened part is like you, too. And we are here - in our Earth experience at this time - to somehow do this co-creatively, regardless of whether we ever actually meet face-to-face, or work together.
For me just connecting with Veronica helped me access knowledge within myself. The Reading was a very deep spiritual experience. The few words spoken were anchoring my spiritual life into my physical dimension.